So much for getting back into writing. My excuse is I’ve been back in town working on houses and actually getting real work done. Also, I’m not sure if writing really resonates with me that much. It could just be an excuse, but I’m really not feeling it right now.
I’ve been a little bit conflicted lately with what I want in life. I am at a crossroad of being comfortable vs. pushing myself. I do know that time is the most valuable thing I have and I do want the most long-term happiness possible. Especially now that I’m a father, I want to be able to spend time with Tristan and raise him properly. I see this as me settling in to being comfortable vs being vastly wealthy and successful, even if I am not living up to my potential. I also do know that I want to help as many people as I can in whatever way I can. I’m not yet sure how I am going to do this or the medium which I will use – like blogging, podcasts, webinars, a life-changing product or service, etc. I feel that if I continue growing as a person and being open to all the universe has to offer, everything will happen in its own perfect time and place.
For now, I’m going to continue on the path I’m on, and I am happy with that decision. I am definitely open to other possibilities, but right now I am very happy and am enjoying life to the fullest. A big thing myself and others get caught up with is comparing ourselves to others. I don’t do it too much, but I need to look within for my own purpose. I am on the right path and doing well so for now I’m just gonna keep doing what I’m doing. I do want to keep blogging on here, but no one really reads it so perhaps more of a personal journal kinda thing.
Oh and one last thing, I did upload all my old xanga posts on here, so if you want to read some cringeworthy stuff, it’s amazing to see how far I’ve come as a person.